If God brings you to it, He’ll bring you through it
When I first felt that God was leading to homeschool my kids, I just could not believe it. I struggled so much in school, how was I supposed to educate my kids?!
I share this story all the time, but it’s worth sharing. I failed Algebra 1 two times. The first time, I got an F. The second time, the teacher gave me a D just to get me out.
I met my husband in college and he knew what a poor student I was so when I first brought up homeschooling, his first words were, “but you don’t know math”!
And he was right. But I was just thinking of homeschooling for a couple of years. There was no way I’d homeschool that long!
But as the years passed and we kept homeschooling, upper-level math was looming ahead and it was just the worst. My math knowledge is so limited that when my oldest was set to do geometry, I mentioned it to a friend and she was like, “ugh, I hate proofs”, and I had NO idea what she was talking about. I had to look it up!
My kids absolutely had to finish through calculus and here I was, I literally cannot do fractions.
Throughout the years of homeschooling, My worry about my weaknesses holding back my kids would keep me up sometimes. I was homeschooling to give them better than what I had. Not worse. They deserved every opportunity and was I depriving them?
Each and every year, I prayed to God that he would relieve me of my weakness and find an awesome school for my kids. Throughout their middle school years, I would go to private and charter school open houses just continually searching.
But I felt His urging. I felt His will. I knew He was not letting me stop. I knew I was going to finish. But it was so hard.
Then one day. It was over.
Their math education is so solid, I marvel at what God has done.
These verses now resonate with me because I understand them more.
I am proud BECAUSE He chose me to carry out His glory. In my weakness, with my thorns, He chose to do something I would never have believed.
If I had been an excellent student, I (and everyone else) would attribute my kids’ academic successes to myself, but I cannot. And it is so much better this way! I can boast all over social media, LOOK what GOD picked ME to do!!
